.: Bee-yoo-ti-ful :.

annapan turned me onto this site. Just gorgeous.

For those expecting the drunk blog....sorry...

.: Unicorns :.

I believe. Thanks Manda. Artwork again by Jason Sho Green

.: Hittin' The Balls :.

After a defeated conversation with Dick, I was in a pretty foul mood - then Hedds calls. She asks if I know about a certain driving range in Chicago. Boom. I load up the car and I'm off down the highway determined to wack at some balls.

I don't know how we lucked out but since we got there so late and paid for parking we got a free bucket of balls. I was just so angry and frustrated I just wanted to knock those lil fuckers out of the range. Then I sorta had a moment of clarity. Set myself for the shot and it was sweet. Hedds said so. From then on it was concetrating on being consistent. Hedds thinks I found my game. I think we're going back tomorrow.

Yeah, I'm tired of wacking at balls. NO Dev, I'm not talking about genitalia.

.: update :.

So I'd survived the Black Out of '05 pretty well. Its resulted in my room becoming more organized. (huh? Wha?) I think after organizing all the crap at work its all kinda rubbed off. Though I do have laundry from a week ago to put away.

I know I was kinda excited about having people come over whilst Mar is in Vegas but I've been so exhausted and burnt out as of late. I'll welcome a day or two in the DG without having to worry about driving and all these damn gas prices.

Besides I've my birthday coming up.. (hint, HINT) and I have to get ready for something my sisters are putting together... AND I have every intention of hitting NEO the Thursday night before... you better be coming, too. yeah, you. ma bitches.

Another note.. sang Tina Turner's "Private Dancer" at Carol's last Thurs. Made four dollars, a cigarette, a few new friends...

Tina Turner - Private Dancer

All the men come in these places
And the men are all the same
You don't look at their faces
And you don't ask their names
You don't think of them as human
You don't think of them at all
You keep your mind on the money
Keeping your eyes on the wall

I'm your private dancer, a dancer for money
I'll do what you want me to do
I'm your private dancer, a dancer for money
And any old music will do

I want to make a million dollars
I wanna live out by the sea
Have a husband and some children
Yeah, i guess i want a family
All the men come in these places
And the men are all the same
You don't look at their faces
And you don't ask their names

I'm your private dancer, a dancer for money
I'll do what you want me to do
I'm your private dancer, a dancer for money
And any old music will do

Deutch marks or dollars
American express will do nicely, thank you
Let me loosen up your collar
Tell me, do you wanna see me do the shimmy again?

.: Black Out :.

Hmmm… maybe this black out is a good thing.

I came back after my meeting with Arif all riled up. (Woot! New movie project!) So I finally got down and dirty cleaning up and organizing my room. I figured I’ll actually make room for the furniture Hedds gave me. I have to bring it upstairs. Besides, I wanna be able to have a Sunday funday at the DG and be able to show off my room. AND I haven’t had a guest sign the wall since for ever…

.: Body Worlds :.

Just saw Body Worlds today. Finally. Was like a kid waiting to get into Disneyland. I’m such a muscle dork. Went with my co-worker Mary. Have to go again. Have to sketch more. A lot more. Here’s what I had so far. Both are two minute studies of “The Chess Player” which I think is my favorite piece.
**insert pics of skethces here as soon as I bloody figure out how to get it off this ancient camera**

It so reminds me of visiting the AIC. Reminds me of the TWO Anatomy and Physiology courses I took for the hell of it cause I thought it would help my figure drawing. Instead it helped me fly through A&P in massage school. Though now I kinda wish I had sketched a lot more. You may notice the proportions are all off on the full figure sketch. It was disconcerting not having the usual landmarks on the body for reference. Its quite a challenge I want to spend some good time drawing there.

Should be easier. I’ll have a lot more time. They’ve hired on another receptionist - cutting my hours. I also took a pay cut in my receptionist pay b/c I understand where we are in budgeting this bidness. I’m getting way too involved in this place but I don’t think I would get as much out if it if I didn’t feel like I was making a bit of sacrifice now to expect big payback later. ** crossing fingers **

.: Cool :.

I'm so not even close to cool as I think I am... Methinks I should get this heart tattooed upon ma sleeve... art by Jason Sho Green







Cool - Gwen Stefani

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool

.: Brilliant :.

.: I Miss Dick :.

There. I said it.

Really, I gotta get used to the idea that I can't have Dick any ole time I want to. I mean, I probably could. Maybe if I tried harder or put in a little more effort. The fact of the matter is there a few more important things in my life than Dick. I've got other places to put my energies than with Dick.

Sure Dick is nice to have every night, to wake up to in the morning. Dick makes me laugh and makes me think. Dick's been pretty handy when I needed to take my mind off things. I could probaby talk to Dick all the time if that idea weren't so silly. And though not all will agree with me, having Dick with a blues dance is pretty sweet.

*sigh*

I just gotta be without Dick for little awhile...

Still... I miss him...

.: No More Waiting :.

Yeah, so, I finally got a good kick in the pance that I needed.

Went over to Rusty and Rachel’s place to bring them to go contra dancing. Instead, Rusty sat me down and proceeded to spank me on how I am being a jackass of late. Not bad for someone I haven’t seen in about 6 months but he’s known me for too long… Through so much shit... Oh the stories!!! And well, short of calling up people for me, he’d pretty much strong armed me into getting my shit done. Finally.

It was probably the first time that I got to hang out with his fiancée, Rachel, since they came over for Christmas YEARS ago.. Well, turns out he picked a pretty nice girl to put up with his shit.

Then off to Fizz - first thing - AWESOME dances with Andrew and Lippy. And that’s how I knew I was on my way back to normal… That and I woke up to a wonderful song this morning… I realised that I've posted this song already here but its is so lovely I'll post it again...

Waiting For My Real Life To Begin – Colin Hay

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow, feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down, on me

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
But don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again
And you say, just be here now
Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon
It's just that times are lean

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart, let the light shine in
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin