.: Worn Me Down :.

I'm so exhausted in so many many ways. Been depressed these last few days So very tired I can't get the words out. Can't get the relief in these tears and words now. So I'll refer to another's love's spent meanwhile I'll try to sleep but know I can't.

Worn Me Down - Rachael Yamagata

Gone - she's gone.
How do you feel about it?
That's what I thought.
You're real torn up about it.
And I wish you the best
I could do without it
And I will because you've worn me down
Oh, I will because you've worn me down

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please you.
But you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.

And you're wrong. You're wrong.
I'm not overreacting.
Something is off.
Why don't we ever believe ourselves?
And I, oh I, I feel it more for you.
And I will because you've worn me down.
And I will because you have worn me down.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please.
But you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.

She's so pretty.
She's so damn right.
But I'm so tired of thinking about her, again, tonight.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told.
Worn me down to my knees.
I did everything to please you.

Worn me down like a road.
I did everything you told me to do.
But you, you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking about her.
No, you can't stop thinking of her.

.: Bri and I :.

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Originally uploaded by jittercliff.

This here is b.lang and I dancing during the Jack and Jill Contest at the 2006 Cowtown Jamborama in Omaha, NE. We'd made the cut for finals. Then we found ourselves matched up as partners... AND ROCKIN' OUT. It was a bit difficult to do at almost 300 bpm ( I was told it was under 300 but alot of other folks thought it was much faster.) For all my talk about blues dancing, you should know dear reader that there are times that Fast Lindy terrifies me. This was one of those instances. I was begging b.lang to just put me in spins of something b/c I could not do a solid fast swingout. But he'd insisted and away I flew. A different kind of flying than what I'd prefer but something that makes me want to look into it more.... AFTER I recover all this life energy spent this weekend.

Anywho, Bri and I placed second. We were just on the phone today reviewing how we got placed second but I feel as though we won. If only because everyone and all the appluase made me feel the rockstar.

.: catch-up :.

wow. tis been a while hasn't it?

Anywho, real quick. Been busy on A's screenplay and other writings. Car may be dead but Pops is trying to revive it. Busy with marketing junk, fake shopping, and Naked. Busy in SLC with JT being treated like a queen. Queen Tessa. Nice ring to it tho I don't know of a one in history.

Going to Omaha this weekend. More dancy and visiting bri-guy. Little coincedence that JT is going to be there too.

Packed next week with more marketing events. Trying to get the house in order for when my sis gets home and ma birthday weekend.

Reminds me, ma bitches, karaoke going on for my birthday eve. Hidden Cove after 11p. Bring it.

.: Travelin :.

bin of banned items at san jose airport
Originally uploaded by popvulture.

Wow. I get to look forward to this?

I understand after what's happened yesterday this course of action is necessary. And I am very willing to go through the trouble of packing for the flights I've booked most recently. And I'm willing to come to the airport hours before I fly. What frustrates me most is the the fear and paranoia that comes out of these terrorist attempts.

I'd had an awful dream of Heathrow last night. It was mainly a flashback to my stay there in the days after 9/11. The fear of having to find out from my little internet kiosk that any of my friends in New York were hurt. There was loneliness of thinking that I would lose contact with friends and family in the States and that I would never make it home..

I dreamt clearly of fear and sadness when I'd seen the cover of a London newspaper. There were pictures of people jumping from the buildings. I'd stood there for what seemed to be hours not exactly comprehending what was in front of me.

I don't know that I'm fully understanding what is before me now...

.: Sistas Gray :.

Nana messed with one of the pictures from the Wedding in Hawaii. This is now my favorite pictures of us. Usually a picture of the three involves us being upside down or everyone sticking their tongues out. Um... I think we're growing up and stuff? I think I'm going to have to get this one printed up and framed for all of us...

.: Write :.

hmmm... firstly you are probably wondering what that little box to just to the right is. Its meebome! You put in a lil line in there and it gets to me via meebo if I'm online. Consider it instant commenting!

I'm soo diggin on the meebo. The Unicorn introduced it to me ages ago. Now its the only IM that use. That and its cute.

So about writing recently... I've been journaling a lot more. Its nice to put pen to paper again. In the right environment, journaling makes it much easier to sketch out ideas for art work or other projects. Plus it gives me a place to write things I don't particularly care to share. I realize I could just go back to my LJ and put a lockdown on my entries... but its not the same. I'm realizing I've more readers than I'd originally considered. Part of the reason I've put up the meebome. I want to be able to dialouge more about what I write here.

However, I'm also realizing that my blog is open to prying eyes into my life and into my friends and family's lives. Its a shame that what I write can cause harm without that being the intention. Not even close.

I am, however, helping A rewrite his fiction. Hopefully, preproduction for his film will start shortly so we can get it in the can this Fall. Its strange rewriting. I feel a as though I'm taking liberty with something that just may be well left alone. But A and myself have collaborated for so long I don't see how I can be too far off the mark. Plus, he's very willing to tell me when I am wrong. Teamwork, its a good thing....

.: If I Lay Here :.

You know those gawdawful mornings that start with your sister pissed off at you? Those mornings where you know you are going to be cranky? Those mornings that are only the beginning of a horrible, horrible day? Those mornings where you are sure the day will end just as bad as it began? ...Only to hear some joke about an octopus and a bagpipe which turns your day around? Well, I had one of those mornings.

Its also one of those mornings, I wish I could just lay about in bed. But without someone here to share it with, its kinda pointless..

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

.: Ok Go - Here It Goes Again Video :.

Almost... almost... going to knock off A-Ha's "Take On Me" for my favourite video...evah. I just have to wonder at how many hours and hours it took to get that all at once. I would love to see the Making of This Video...