.: Mommy's Helper :.

We have an inside joke

I get to take care of this beaner and help out dixie on Fridays. A fairly easy endeavor. Though I'll have to admit I slightly panicked when she got into screaming fit because she was fighting sleep. But I got her down and gave myself a pat on the back. She is a darling girl when you get her happy... And the errands... easy peasy. Its pretty rewarding to know that I'm helping out the family.

I may have wedding fever but babies are giving me a slight temperture.

.: On the Road Again :.

For those not in the know, I've had my car back for a week now. One thing that I missed about driving was rocking out and singing along with the music. So I heard this the other day and sang at the top of my lungs to my fellow drivers along the highway... classic.

The Reason - Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

.: Never :.

Dev has posted up his movie!

.: where are you? :.

mk posted up her list again...

So I took the time to look at mine and see if it needs some updating. And it does. This especially after taking the test at echemistry.com.

List of Things I Want in My Partner in Crime

- Knows how to enjoy drink, not to abuse it.
- A dry sense of humour. Like me.
- Loves music, he strives to have, listen, or create music everyday
- Sings, I'm not asking for a fabulous voice but someone so passionate about music that they have to be a part of it, dare I say, even likes karaoke
- A thoughtful romantic in action and not just in word; in meaning, not in dollars.
- Must be a dancer, not just a lindy hopper but someone who knows how to express himself with his body and is comfortable with it.
- Oooo...dances (nice and slow)
- Knows when to kick my butt if I'm being a butt.
- Knows when to leave me alone if I'm being an ass.
- Great to take on a road trip, can play the part of Captain, Navigator, and/or passenger just along for the ride.
- Will play in a water fight, snowball fight or swing on a swing set
- Opens the door - car or otherwise.
- Walks on the streetside along the sidewalk with me
- Walks with me to the playground.
- Does NOT SNORE... more than me
- Knows movies. Has opinions about movies. Can tell me the story about a movie without completely ruining it for me
- Seriously, he has to be damn funny esp with well-timed Simpsons quotes.
- Cares more about me than money er knows where to prioritize money with our needs.
- Loves travel - whether by the seat of our pants or a well-planned adventure
- Loves long phone calls and longer letters - there's no kind of communication that he lacks in.
- Writes me notes - cause as much as I like to say action shows more, a nice word now and then on a Post it note or via text msg, is sweet.
- Likes tea
- reliable
- doesn't yell 'cause I tend to just shut down if I get yelled at and they've got to know better ways of communicating
- great in bed - ok I should be specific - great FUN in bed. If gettin' off is going to be great strain and work well, that's no fun.
- creative, resourceful, practical
- DEAL BREAKER: Must LOVE anime that is subtitled
- Must dig foreign films, ie. a first choice when picking out weekend videos
- "Know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run"
- A night person that won't be too bothered when I make a late night drinky dial
- loves pets - cats and dogs
- reads A LOT - and tells me all about them books
- cracks ma shitup but at times it when I don't have coffee in my mouth
- good with their hands *not just THAT way, sickos* ie. build stuff, fix things, and makes junk.
- looks me in the eye esp when its the kinda truth that hurts
- holds my hand in public
- doesn't need to be baby-sat at parties
- DEAL BREAKER: My sisters must get a good vibe
- knows high heels equals cab ride
- MUST DIG ROBOTECH
- truly appreciates family
- doesn't smoke everyday
- must {heart} toys
- makes me laugh ... in bed
- loves video games BUT not an addict
- an extensive appreciation for art, jazz, theatre, and Oscar Wilde
- geeks a lot about a lot of things
- willing to make an ass of himself
- DEALBREAKER: able to survive the Philippines- the weather and the family
- more action than talk
- more play than work
- loves food - eating it and cooking it
- a team player
- a life-time learner
- knows when to negotiate and when to stand his ground
- inspirational
- patient with me and himself
- lets me know I'm worth his time and attention every chance he can.
- touches me not just because he knows it will make me smile but because he wanted to anyways

.: Wedding Fever :.

Glenn and Allison's Wedding
Originally uploaded by nuprinz.

After missing agood number of wedding that I was invited to I finally went to one. This wedding invite was a bit out of the blue. My best buddy Arif asked me to go with him. Glenn, I had known for a few years now after first meeting him in our improv group. Did not know anyone else there.

I think some of the problems I have with going to weddings lately is a fear having to make some chit-chat. ya, i know, you think I can talk to anyone. That just hasn't been the case lately. I almost feel that I have nothing to contribute to a conversation. *sigh*

Well, I guess I'll have to suck it up. My sister's wedding is in less than two weeks.... eep.

I should also mention that this wedding I attended was the simplest yet most stylish event I've been. Twas inspirational really.... I want to get married. More on that later.

.: A CUBE Success :.

Spyder
Originally uploaded by ohtoberich.

Atleast I think it was...

Got nice lovely little comments...but I can't wait to hear the criticism.

Personally, it got back to the heart of an exchange: Good dancers, Great music, unbelivable good times! So worth the pain and trouble. Imma so going to crash in a bit....

btw I'm pretty sure that its Glenn dancing in that picture with Spyder.

.: On the Edge :.

augh.

It's unlikely that I could (or should) explain the rollercoaster of emotions I've been riding as of late.

...my sister's wedding, thinking of my own, thinking how I've got to snag a groom first, thinking I'm so NOT marriage material, thinking I hate people, thinking people must hate me scowling at them, thinking I'm a disappointment, thinking I love dancing at Fizz, thinking I've got some pretty fucking awesome friends, thinking I got to keep working on CUBE shit...

Luckily I had a few people that talked me down. b.lang and jer were pleasant surprises. A virtual hug and kiss from swingdoc was especially uplifting. The unicorn not only talked me down from the worst part, he gave me alot more to think about...

off to bed to wake to another ride...

.: what I've become :.

I know for sure that what we dwell on is who we become.
Oprah Winfrey, O Magazine

I'm not a big fan on who I've become.

Its pretty outstanding the negative things that I dwell on. The Unicorn pointed out a glaring blemish on my character. As opposed to doing anything about it, the least of whatever he's suggested, I've sat on my resentment and let it fester further. And it hasn't been any better these last few days. Imma wreck.

mk had it right when she'd said I don't need to worry about forgiving other people. "You should forgive yourself first."

.: Its late I know :.

...but I'd felt like writing. Don't want to fight that feeling...

Walked home after a brief visit with mk and Owen. I wish there was a way to share with you the scent of the air tonight. The blossoms. The cool breeze. It was almost a shame we live so close. That and my foot still hurting. How nice is it to spend just a few moments with an old friend to catch up on things and to spill your guts.

I've been off the past few days. I was desperately hoping that this free concert tonight would raise my spirits. It horribly failed. However, the drinks following with some of the dancers that helped. It was funny and wonderful at once how we stood outside of the restaurant lingering not wanting the stories to end. But they did. Much too short for me.... especially tonight.