.: BluesSHOUT :.

wow. More later. So very tired.

.: Flake :.

Its a Jack Johnson song. I didn't know what it was. I'm sure that I'd heard it some point with Hedds, who is huge fan.

But I heard it tonight at work and my heart kinda ached. I can't live in limbo. Suddenly, my patience is gone. I can't wait much longer.

Flake - Jack Johnson

I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie too

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

.:Bitch Y'all :.

I dunno. I know I shouldn't be drinking a snit but today...today I wanted a glass. Not just to be social, not be for a tasting, I wanted to feel a buzz. So picked me up a bottle Bitch Granache 2005. I've been wanting to bust into bottle for a few months now after a tasting at the shop. So the time is now along with some brie, baguette and Grey's Anatomy (I really really dislike Meredith). sigh.

I was anxious all day long. The shootings at Virginia Tech has me so on edge. I can't bear hearing more. I refuse to sit down in front of the media and take it all in. I'd opened up a newspaper at work tonight and I wanted to just sit down and cry. I don't know why I let these things affect me. The anniversary of 9/11 gets me on edge.

I'm just worried about alot of little things at once.

I shouldn't be I've alot of good things going for me. Awesome jobber. Awesome other jobbers. Awesome unicorn. Safe places to be. Great friends. Good safety nets. I'm taking are of my health more. I'm generally writing more (not in the last couple of weeks).

One glass. Then some sleep. I'm sure I'll be loads better in the morning.... IF I wake up early enough I'll write more before work...

.: Happy Easter 2007 :.

nana sent this to me.



hmmm...mebbe I should do some egg dyeing. Mebbe I should hit up some cathedral for some Easter Mass. I've no plans outside of working on Sunday. Boo.