.: Letting Go :.

uh... I woke up not really looking forward to the day.

I had two clients to meet. The first was going to be a challenge, shoulder problems, which I should have found very appealing. Alas, I think I've mentioned how out of it I've been of late. It was worse since I'd had a strange bit of insomnia that had me watching M.A.S.H. at four in the morning.

Plus she was an early client. I'd opened up shop early for her. We'd met the day before when I was giving tune up chair massages and I had mentioned that shoulder patholgies were my specialty. Turns out she's a breast cancer survivor. So I mention my volunteer work at 1000 waves and the desire to learn lymph drainage. Don't know why I didn't mention my Avon Walk... she IS kinda loaded... any who...

So this morning, I'm feeling cranky and drained as is... for awhile there I was doubting how well I was doing ...but she would say, "Yep, you got it."

Turns out to be a talker... doesn't want to relax and fall asleep.. just keeps chatting with me. She unloads her recent stressors on me and we even got to talk about some of my recent problems.

Then it happens. She cried. Emotional Release. Its happens fairly often with cancer patients. Its so frustrating and stressful trying to live a normal life all the while getting poked and prodded; hoping not to be disappointed. Our muscles hold memories and when I worked out some sore spots she finally let go. It was ok to cry. She kept apologising but I told her it was alright. I just stopped working on her but kept my hands where I'd stopped.

We finished soon after. I gave her some good homework to keep what muscles we did work on in good shape. I even gave her something to just think about - My professor had said that there are times when the body just armours itself from psychological pain. Watch certain people that look as though their chests have collapsed with their shoulders turned inward. They are protecting their hearts...

Then I sent her on her way. I stripped the sheets from the bad and set the room for my next client. I went to the bathroom to wash my hands like I always do. Cleanses away all that I may have picked up from my client. - oil, dirt, psychic energies, bad feelings. Dried my hands. Sat on the toilet seat. Cried.