.: Red Flag Melancholy :.

Two parts:

First. I've set off red flags recently. Not taking very good care of myself. The drinking boots are just one flag. I shouldn't have even been drinking. I can't quite place where I'd lost my footing but I gotta keep working at it.

The falls aren't the thing, its the getting up again, right?

Dancing has been a mixed blessing. I've been dancing everyday this week for instance. The dancing this week has been keeping me moving and thinking and working. Working really hard. Yet its kept me distracted from my worries and what I really should be concerned about. One day I will strike that balance. One day.

Second:
More specifically, my hearts been aching. And not over some moron or any moron. Its not loneliness either. Maybe its just the downshift melancholy but I've exposing myself to this miserable song too. I got my sister hooked on it. We were weeping at a performance of it. She said it was because he looked as though he were suffering through his wretched heartache again.

Its always the lyrics to this song that get me. The hope, so apparent, the desperation too then a sad sad resignation. In these miserable words... It kinda hurts me that one of my red flags is not writing again... but it would kinda be like this miserable stuffs anyways...

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.