ok I'm not all that improved... but i'm surprisingly better. I was looking at a journal I had started on oprah.com three years ago. wow, I've learned alot. but apparently not enough... I'm falling back into old habits.

like missing school and work... and I know its got to be frustrating for my friends to hear esp. the ones i know are so proud of how I've been doing lately. *sigh*

My therapist had warned me once that these setbacks are to be expected. I'll be climbing up from where I was but I may slide back down once in a while. The good thing is that i will never slide back to where I was before. And I would never want to.. that place sucked. hard. and then from the place where I slid down to, I start climbing again and i get better.

Another possibility is that I tend to undermine myself simply b/c I can't believe things are going so well...

ok so on a positive note, i've learned that I've got great friends and family that I can rely on when I start to slip.... their are times I don't even want to trouble them with my pathetic stories cause I don't wat to see the disappointment on their face or to hear it in their voice. But i know its the simplest thing that I can do to start righting the mistakes I might have made.