.: Devastating :.

These past few weeks, particularly after Afable's funeral, have been challenging. Today, I got hit with the inevitable. My latest job let me go along with a bunch of other employees. "...economy with the way it is..." What irony that I felt blessed to have a job today. This after watching news clips and news clips about the unemployment numbers. Yet into work as I also do, bright and cheery and ready to go.

Then I got called into a room with six other people and that was that.

I'm not going to lie. I'm freaking the hell out. And my sister has told me not to dwell on it and to move forward. Its what you do in these situations that defines you. I can't say I'm a good person to try to apply that to. How am I defined if I just want to throw in the towel.... and I know that things are going to get worse before they get better...

Ah, if I could only drown my sorrows in a pint of beer or seven...

.: A 25 List Update 2008:.

I accomplished quite a bit since my most recent 25 List post. All in such a short period of time..


Watch a Sing-a Long Movie: Totally. Me and my sister went and saw The Little Mermaid at the Music Box. They had a treat bag. It was filled with toys and noise makers to use during the movie. Kinda like the audience participation with a viewing of The Rocky Horror Picture Show but G-Rated and no transvestites!It was a wonderful bit of my birthday week...

Own A Convertible: Kinda did that this summer. I was part of a promo gig where I got to drive a convertible all over the City and Suburbs. In all actuality, I'm bumping it off the list. I realized it was going to be very very impractical in the winter months ;)

Write a Love Letter: This actually should have been ticked off a long time ago. Apparently, I have written more than one... and they were all very well done :D

Run a 5K: Woot! And so on... I am so very proud of myself. I did so much better than I ever anticipated. And you can read more about it here.

Now the Updated List

25 Things to Do Before I Die - in no particular order

1. Japan
2. Learn Guitar
3. Master Escrima
4. Go Canoeing with Rusty
5. Do a one-woman show
6. Be a mother
7. Direct a play in the Virginia
8. Swim in the Atlantic Ocean
9. France
10. Pay off debt
11. Do an art show or art fair
12. Be a wife
13. Live in California
14. Visit New York City (for real)
15. Graduate with my bachelors
16. Own a puppy.
17. Live in an apartment by a river
21. Publish poems
18. Visit London (For Real)
19. Take a train cross-country
20. Learn to juggle
22. Watch a Prince concert (from the good seats)
23. Volunteer in an After School program
24. Keep an herb garden
25. Meet Tina Fey

.: Ugh..what a shit week :.

It started off fine enough. A visit with Mar and friends with some great Korean BBQ and yummy Lutz cake! Excellent conversation about the Palin/Couric interview... Gonna watch the VP debate in a tic..

Find out on Monday that my latest promo gigs will be scaled back. So a little less income there. Then I hear about the market crashing. My sister later tells me the real deal. That's when I get real worried... and part of it is about Fizz...

Yesterday, the Cubs lost. In FANTASTIC fashion... poor sis she's the one with the shit week.

Hopefully this weekend will be awesome... WCLX10! Get to see ppl that aren't out very often or just plain moved away... notes about that later ;)

.: Birthday Week 2008 :.

I can't keep up anymore. 35 is making me slower. And more meditative.

Saturday - KARAOKE! I think that says enough. No wait. Did me some Deth Metal Disney.

Sunday - Fam time. Alot of food. Getting plants for my sister's garden, I run into my old bartender. He's happier so that's good to hear and hopefully he'll visit me at Fizz again.

Monday - Day before actually birthday. Worked for 10 hours at my new jobber. Temp promo work but pays very well. Then to Fizz! It was way fun but not as fun as its been with Anne-girl in town. Had a drink with my bartender. I'm really going to miss him.

Tuesday - Actual birthday. Didn't do a damn thing. Called up some folks that wished me happy birthday. It was nice just catching up. Tried to keep up with the well-wishes from ppl on facebook...

Wednesday - More promo work and more doing nothing. It was raining. I wanted to hole up at home instead of going out to Green Dolphin Street.

Thursday - All me day! Went to see Lookingglass Alice again. Whee! Love It! Then I treated myself to Grand Lux Cafe. Unfortunately all in the rain. But I did happen to have another umbrella in my bag. Accidentally brought one and I saw this woman walking up the street from me, soaked. So I walked up to her and gave her my extra umbrella. yes, me day.

Friday - mostly home things. Mostly in front of the TV working on the art project for Drew's. Felt good doing some art. Then another promo gig where I totally got lost. But I got lost while driving a convertible roadster so that was fuuun.

Saturday - Lechon at sister's new place. I love the new kitchen so it was nice to help out with some cooking before the party. Nice spending more time with extended family and catching up with old friends. I unfortunately had to leave early b/c of another promo gig...

Not a incredibly festive week but it was nice spending it primarily alone. Someone pointed out to me that I'm very solitary on the major holidays... dunno why.