12 December 2003

.:] Shields up [:.

Its unfortunate but it happens.

As I'm giving a massage that's meant to relax, sometimes a client will take guard. Their muscles will tense a little or there joints won't bend as I move their limbs. Sometimes they will jerk away at my touch.

No matter the amount of preplanning can guarantee that my well-intended touch won't set up a client's defenses. Its no matter how thoroughly the intake interview covered injury history, discussed comfort level, and what's been agreed upon for what the session will cover. Something can go wrong.

What disappoints me most is there may be times when my client can't get to the same level of relaxation as they had before they armored up. Even after we discuss if something was wrong with the pressure, temperature, whatever. Even if I make changes necessary. But I don't give up and I don't try harder, I just try to continue.

This reminds me why I bother with morons and fucknuts. Hell, if I gave up on every person that happened to steel themselves up to my touch then I wouldn't have many folks to practice on. I guess I've felt that way to the morons that have lied to me and made me feel bad. I for some reason feel like I can work on it...

Massage has taught me a lot about forgiveness. Moving past hurt. Redirecting negative energies to something more constructive. The session may not be the entire body and soul healing as I would aspire for it to be but I have remember its only part of a step towards a healthier life.

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