.:] Kitty has this way... [:.

I have a journal entry somewhere but I'm too lazy to dig it out and reprint it here.

Basically it is this: Mk had her AvonWalk fundraiser and it was very very nice despite her voice petering out on her. If anything, her stories of medical adventures was enough entertainment to recover from anything the songs may have lacked. I so just wanted to hear her rock out on her songs but she looked a bit strained with the songs sometimes but really - what guts to keep doing the show. Beeyatchski entertaining as always and even Valentine- I was surprised.

I was a complete spazz for a big part o the night since I've consciously been trying to cut out sugars and caffeine for a week. I had a SUPER long day that night - and bent under the temptation of Box o' Joe from DD and MK's BIG COOKIE and "Bite o' Sex" truffles. Then MK puts this song for me at the end of the night as we were cleaning up. And I stood very very still, listening...

Liz Phair - Insanity

You do me and you wind me up just to see me crack
Half the fun of being mean is to see me coming back
We've been through this so many times before
Shouldn't we be getting good at it

I was happy to let you in my life
But you didn't even try to keep it alive
Come back to me, don't you want to find insanity with me

I'm not gettin' through to you on the phone
Maybe when you're not around, you couldn't be more gone
You're acting like you just turned twenty-one today
Struttin' in your new suit
You can't keep your mouth shut
But you don't have a single thing to say

I was happy to let you in my life
But you didn't even try to keep it alive
Come back to me, don't you want to find insanity with me

Don't you love me anymore?
Don't you love me anymore?

[Background voice-over: "Don't you love me anymore?"]
I was happy to let you in my life
But you didn't even try to keep it alive
Come back to me, don't you want to find insanity with me

Don't you love me anymore?
Don't you love me anymore?

[Background voice-over: "I was happy to let you in my life"]
Don't you love me anymore?

[Background voice-over: "But you didn't even try to keep it
alive"]
Don't you love me anymore?

Even now writing this I get all misty. I so needed to hear the first few lines. My heart aches from disappointments but especially after that long day. I don't know why I'm still a hopeful girl at heart.

Mebbe Kitty knows this. Mebbe we still share these songs and experiences with each other because we know the ache the other will feel, too.