.:] Three Is A Magic Number [:.

He shouldn't even be counted. I don't even really want to think about him. But there he was on the television - a quasi-public access show.

We were good friends. Worked together on several different projects in college. Then, I broke up with my first love and he created a mixed tape for me that for some reason had this heart-wrenching song.

Janet Jackson - Again

I heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in my mind

How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again

A wounded heart you gave
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many
I know you did

I come from a place that hurts
And God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
never fall again

Making love to you
Oh it felt so good and
Oh so right

So here we are alone again'
Didn't think it'd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss

I've come too close to happiness
To have it swept away
Don't think I can take the pain
No never fall again

Kinda late in the game and my heart is in
Your hands
Don't you stand there and then
Tell me you love
Me then leave again
Cause I'm falling in love with
You again

Hold me
Hold me
Don't ever let me go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do
Love you
Again

I was so vulnerable. He took advantage of it. What's worse wasn't the injustice I'd felt he'd done but that I tried to right all lies and betrayals. And there he is grinning on TV. There was no real justice then like there is none now.