.:] Keep Away [:.

I was the woman I dislike. I am still. kinda.

I've become an indecisive girlie girl. I can't bitch about my dating situation. I really don't have one. But I feel like I've lead a few people on. I don't mean to and I'm gonna grow some balls and take care of the situation.

I think ultimately I really can't deal with anyone right now. I feel horribly lonely at times. Then I fall in love multiple times other nights. Nana's pointed out that my definition of love is way different than most others. I'm much too casual about using that intimate phrase. Anne's pointed out that I talk to just about anyone at a bar - I guess in a way that gives them the wrong idea. But really what am I supposed to do? So I get excited about other people. So I talk to other people that I don't have a lot in common with. So they're nowhere near my list. That's fine but then why do I bother giving them my number? er even my right number. Should I provide a disclaimer? Something like:" We can keep talking but you ain't seeing my bodacious tatas" or "Keep Away: Volatile Contents"?

Counting Crows - She Don't Want Nobody Near

She don't want nobody near
But you can't get away from that
They appear and disappear
And they all get a string attached
Pretty soon they've got you hanging on the line
Pretty soon they're singing one by one, the same old rhyme
They say, "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight"
She don't want nobody home
Cause it's a little too crowded then
But she don't want to be alone
So they just keep pouring in
Pretty soon they've got her headed for the door
She comes home to find that they're not hanging 'round no more
She says, "I'm alright, you just can't get home tonight"
Don't you wonder what she looks like in the light?
She says "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight"
Pretty white-washed lies,
endless alibis
and reasons that need cleaning every night
Half a world away
You can't wash away the stain of the deceiving
And the things that you cannot believe
And well, she don't want no one around
Cause she don't want anybody to see
What she looks like when she's down
Cause that's a really sad place to be
Pretty soon she gets them crawling up the walls
Then she wonders why they beg her please to never call
She says "I'm ok, it's alright, hey look who's on TV tonight"
She says, "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight"
Don't you wonder why it's dark outside at night?
She says, "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight"

I don't know and I don't want to deal with it right now. But I have to. I'm sticking to swing crushes. Love affairs that last 3min. Love lightly... Let go lightly... and Run like hell.