06 August 2003

New Leaf?

I've probably a whole tree of new leaves. Makes for a pretty picture i think.

First, I want to remind folks that alcohol is both a depressant and a stimulant. Otherwise I should be in bed right now getting my last hour of sleep in before my LONG day of class...

So it pretty much official folks, I've had another bout of depression. All this "jet lag" of sleeping 10-12 a day and then staying up until 4 or 6 in morning wasn't the only reason why I was missing events and being late for work. I was so exhausted physically and mentally from the trip to the Philippines (probably even well before that) yet still trying to keep up with my regular schedule. Usually when i'm depressed, I don't want to eat a thing but this time was different. Swiss Rolls and Puddin' Cups and Ben and Jerry's....

Right. Well, those were some of the characteristics of my depression. The awful week I had last week (which I will write about later) has all the definate red flags. This morning is another new leaf. I go back to class and face my teachers and get back on track. I'm still wavering on going over to Jamba Juice this morning and apologizing for not picking up the phone. I can do that another day. Today is about massage therapy esp b/c I have a performance exam today!

No comments: