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No date but has to be the last week of 2001

So much to write about & I don't even have my journal with me. Two things I definitely have to write about before I go to work @ Leona's tonight.

First, last night I had a serious problem saying good night to TK. Maybe it was b/c I had made the horrible assumption that I would be sleeping over last night. Sometimes I wonder if I didn't drive into Chicago all the time - if he wouldn't make the effort to see me? Why doesn't he make the effort to try to see me when he can?

Why was I so so blue yesterday? Maybe b/c I was all tired & cranky yesterday. maybe b/c I feel like he doesn't care for me like I care for him? I just don't feel the reassurance of his love for me. and its not like it takes a lot. I'm not all encompassing of his attentions. I'm not demanding he make time for me from work and give it to me. But I feel like I make all the phone calls. I send all the emails. I don't ask for presents, demand gifts. All he had to do was leave me a voice mail or an email. He did that on those few days before we got back together. I guess I was expecting that . Why didn't he ever call me and check on me? I'd always called him then too? sigh. I suppose I could talk to him about it tonight.